Kitchen Connections to Grief, Joy, and Growing Up

Book review: Kitchen Yarns, by Ann Hood (Amazon / Book Depository)

When I write an essay about food, I am really uncovering something deeper in my life – loss, family, confusion, growing up, growing away from what I knew, returning, grief, joy, and, yes, love.

Author Ann Hood is also a Laurie Colwin devotee, and her latest nonfiction essay collection, Kitchen Yarnsis beautifully similar to all that’s wonderful about Home Cooking and More Home Cooking. Hood writes sweetly and admiringly of Colwin’s legacy and how much the brief experience she had with her, years ago on a New York winter evening, meant to her. This book is clearly influenced by Colwin’s warm, funny and charmingly self-deprecating style, but it owes a lot to others as well – M.F.K. Fisher being another food writer who clearly inspired Hood, for one.

But Hood’s biggest influences are her family members, and she writes lovingly, nostalgically, and humorously about the connections between food, family, and life events both tragic and wonderful.

These essays are affecting, sweet (often bittersweet) stories of episodes from Hood’s life, childhood to present, framed around the meals someone was cooking for her, food associated with a particular moment, or that she was learning to cook herself at the time. I was hooked by one admission, because as a latecomer to cooking myself, this was exactly my situation too: “Even though I lived in a house filled with good food, no one ever taught me to cook.” Hood’s life in cooking spans the spectrum of hilariously amateur to admirably polished, and this was delightfully hopeful and quite funny at the same time.

She describes her father and his love of cooking despite not being particularly gifted in this area, her grandmother’s old-world-style Italian cooking for the whole family, and the many connections between her mother and food. This relationship with her mother is a predominant theme, as she explains that her mother passed around the time she was finishing the book, and the bittersweetness of fresh loss coupled with cherished memory permeates the stories in which she appears.

Humor is inextricably intertwined with nostalgia, like in “Confessions of a Marsha Jordan Girl”, where she captures the lightness of her teenage years when a little dream came true and she modeled for the Jordan Marsh department store. The culinary connection is in her recollection of their famous sugar-topped blueberry muffins, which she can’t help but tie to the sweetness and impermanence of youth: “Their taste lingers for a long moment before it is gone.”

She has a good sense for when levity is called for, because there’s often a strong current of sadness, the little everyday sadnesses found in many true life stories. Describing the loneliness of being single and alone in New York City, where she cooked to “stave off loneliness and keep sadness at bay”: Sometimes my sadness was so big I felt everyone I passed could see it. I think the stories Hood tells will speak comfortingly to those who’ve experienced similar.

Or just to those prone to sentimentality, like when she describes a dinner party that unexpectedly jogs a long-buried happy memory, along with the nostalgia and roads-not-taken that accompany such remembering: “Finally, I returned to this dinner party, dizzy for what I once had, what I never had, what I had hoped for.”

As is often the case, with success came a longing for home. We yearn so much to leave our small town, our childhood home, the familiar. Yet somehow once we’ve left it all behind, it beckons us back. 

These essays are often like this – caught between a love of and joy in recalling the past and all that inhabited it, but a melancholy over the life that’s intervened in the meantime. In Hood’s case, this involves a failed marriage and a daughter who died suddenly and very young. She weaves these issues, serious and thorny as they are, into smooth meditations on life’s fragility and what she did to heal herself and her heart, including the kind of food she nourished herself with. “Perhaps the key to soothing my aching heart is American cheese?” being one such consideration, a lighter moment in an essay telling of grief. It’s the kind of reading that you think will be painful but ends up being a balm for what ails you.

Kitchen Yarns is my journey from that family and that childhood through my early efforts at cooking – flank steak marinated in Good Seasons salad dressing to impress a boy I liked in college; pesto made with two cups of dried basil – to diligently copying recipes from The Silver Palate Cookbook as a young single woman living in New York City to trying to make the perfect spaghetti carbonara, like the one I ate in Rome on a layover as a TWA flight attendant.

As a collection, the essays can feel disjointed, as if they were written for separate publications. This is mostly because specific themes and details are repeated a few times. But it’s a minor criticism, I liked her stories enough that it just ended up making me wish there was broader material.

Somehow both heartbreaking and heartwarming, deeply thoughtful and often hilarious, Hood writes about how the pieces of your life can fall apart completely but still manage to be put back together. She’s no stranger to hardship but it’s clear she hasn’t let it make her bitter, and her writing on the nostalgia for youth, innocence, family who have passed and relationships that went sour, alongside the sweetness of those around us and the love that follows heartbreak, is joyful and celebratory instead of oppressive or melancholy. I was sometimes devastated along with her but ultimately, the message is entirely uplifting. 4.5/5

Kitchen Yarns: Notes on Life, Love and Food
by Ann Hood
published December 4, 2018 by W.W. Norton

I received an advance copy courtesy of the publisher for unbiased review.

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14 thoughts on “Kitchen Connections to Grief, Joy, and Growing Up

  1. Thoughtful review! I’ve been curious to read more food writings since having started to cook regularly upon finishing undergrad, and this sounds like it strikes a nice balance between humor and reflection. The idea of cooking as a way to “stave off loneliness and keep sadness at bay” in a new place is interesting.

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    1. This is a great one for an introduction into food writing because it’s more memoir/life-writing heavy than some others that feel more cookbook-y. It’s really a little gem of a book, some beautiful writing too. It made me want to try something else of this author’s.

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  2. I spent the weekend yearning desperately for Laurie Colwin’s books, wanting to curl up and read about her quest for the perfect gingerbread or any of her other wonderful food-focused musings. I wasn’t able to get my hands on them (the downside of trying to keep a lean home library) but this sounds like a worthy substitute – and one I hadn’t yet heard of. Thanks for bringing it to my attention!

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    1. It’s a very new one, just published today. I know the feeling, revisiting Laurie Colwin has been my habit so often since discovering her. Ann Hood clearly learned a lot from her in telling stories around life and food and the many happy and emotional connections between the two, the influence is clear. She even included her tomato pie recipe and an essay about Colwin, it was really touching.

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    1. It really felt almost magical at times! Maybe it was just the right thing I needed to read at the right time, one of those situations. But I think it could speak to a lot of people in that way. She really shows how much emotion, good and bad, is tied into food and how it connects to our pasts. It moved me and gave me a lot to think about. I really recommend it, it’s a very helpful and happy read even as she touches on more serious topics!

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  3. What a wonderful review. I think I would enjoy this – despite being not at all comfortable cooking, I enjoy food writing. (After all, I enjoy eating!) I am trying to become a better cook. I think most of it is pure laziness. I do bake, however, and love doing so. I read Laurie Colwin’s nonfiction for the first time in the last year or two – she was fun!

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    1. I think if you can bake you can definitely become a better cook, baking just seems to me the much more confounding of the two!! I’m not sure why, I’ve had worse baking disasters, I guess. I’m always trying to become a better cook too, it’s a slow process and I’m never going to be able/patient enough to do anything too complicated but it’s all a big step up from my longtime kitchen repertoire of toast and coffee 😂 if I can manage it I promise you can too!!

      This one is wonderful even if you’re not so into cooking (actually not even that many recipes I was crazy about here, and the one I’ve made since was actually Colwin’s) because there’s so much memoir/life writing to it and she doesn’t make the food writing snooty or inaccessible. Much of it is just about things she ate that she loved and associates with happy memories, like the spaghetti carbonara in Rome. It’s a lot of fun. If you like Laurie Colwin’s nonfiction I’d definitely recommend it!

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  4. Recently I’ve gotten into Chef’s Table on Netflix, and I am always struck at how the chefs describe food memories that stand out to them. They are connected to their grandmother’s table, the outdoors, discovering themselves, etc. But I feel like I have no distinct food memories of my own! I’m interested in reading Kitchen Yarns to see if, after reading someone exploring their feelings and personal growth connected with food, I might be able to discover my own.

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    1. I think this is the perfect book for discovering your own feelings about that, because she doesn’t make it lofty or pretentious in any way, like some food writing can be (maybe that’s relatable for some but it’s not really for me.) It definitely got me thinking about what connections I had in that respect too, she writes in a way that invites you to think of what’s special about your own experience, even if it’s things like jello and spaghetti that you might not think are all that special 🙂

      I didn’t know of Chef’s Table but it sounds intriguing, thanks for that!

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  5. This sounds wonderful -it’s not out in the UK yet, but I think I will probably be pre-ordering it. It sounds like precisely the type of food writing that I love. Thanks for a really informative review – I feel like I got a really good sense of it from the quotes you included and your thoughts.

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    1. It’s truly wonderful. I’m so glad I could help you get a sense of it, I’m always hoping for that in writing reviews :)It’s fun and meaningful food writing but also lovely memoir, exactly the kind of writing I love too…and she has some great recipes mixed in so even more of a bonus.

      I don’t know what format you prefer to read in but you can order the US hardback from Book Depository (I included links in the review) and it ships free (I think they’re even UK-based) and you can probably buy the ebook/audio already from Amazon as well. It’s kind of a fitting reflective end-of-year read. I hope you read it, would love to hear your thoughts on it!

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